When your Safety Net becomes your Demon
This, then, is what it feels like without a safety net I realize. Frightening as hell at first, but then.... Then suddenly you realize you are doing it. You. All by yourself. Perhaps a distant memory of riding that bicycle without someone holding on to the seat flits through your brain. Every once in a while, fear still grips you like a demon and reduces you to nothing once again. But you persevere because somewhere inside, you know you can do this. You can give up the net. That damn comfortable, soft, sweet, delicious net. Eventually you realize the net itself became the demon.
The safety net is many things. Have you thought about what yours is? Maybe a person or a substance or something else. It feeds you what you think you need. Perhaps your net was snatched away unexpectedly and you decided not to replace it. Maybe you chose to try it without the training wheels.
The day comes that you finally have the sensation of freedom. A freedom like nothing you have ever felt before. You. You in all your perfectly imperfect glory. No sense of not meeting unrealistic expectations. No sense of needing more.
Finally you begin to see what it will be like to fully evolve into who you were meant to be all along. If only you had known it could be like this. But we never do. Until we are ready. The journey with the safety net is part of the evolution.
Freedom to be you. Oh, that is the sweet, deliciousness we have been searching for.